1. Relief - to a closing of misunderstandings and arguments. To have some closure after digging up and understanding myself more as a person, weighing out my weaknesses and strengths and coming to more of a balance. Tying loose ends of guilt and previous memories of pain from deceit and mistrust, healing old wounds and scars, to unfold a new chapter of me. So many tears, emotions, and learning has been done this past two months. From the moment my dorm room flooded, to the haunted terror in my new dorm building, to the countless fights and miscommunication with close and best friends, to facing my fears, weaknesses, flaws, and memories of the past, to finally, analyzing and seeing numerous people’s true colors and souls - either good or bad…And I am so grateful to have all these things surface and come to my consciousness. Thank you mercury retrograde.
2. That brings me to thank my best friend, soulmate and true partner in crime. Thank you for all the long nights of comfort and support, emotionally, physically, and spiritually. Thank you for patience, reassurance, and a perfect dosage of both the mad and the sane. Not only have you taught me lessons to face my true self in both my past and future, but you’ve also taught me to see things in the polar opposite- to see a new perspective. Thank you for balancing me out, although at the same time you drive me insane. Thank you for your trust and love. I love and care for you dearly. Please always remember your importance in this universe. Do not trivialize your skills or underrate your worth.
3. Extremely grateful for such a wonderful small community my school consists of. I am so utterly grateful for such wonderful genuine friends, full of special skills and a diverse array of interests. Thank you all for being true to yourselves and staying true to your own souls and moral values. Because of you guys, my faith in humanity has been immensely restored.
Life is so fragile and intricately complex. Life is beautiful and awful in such extremes and is evenly distributed throughout the journey. Thus, it will take a lot of patience and diligent balancing work to strive to become a better person for the universe.